closure. i think i despise the concept. it signifies change, leaving something behind, the end of something. normally the end of something good (although not necessarily). i feel like it is like the scab on a wound. it closes up which is good for healing, but it means there's a wound. i dont like that.
i love it here. a lot. ive realized that even more recently as ive thought about what it is going to be like to leave it behind--i leave nyahuka on monday! ive realized more and more than i want to be here. i dont know why or what it is that draws me to stay. well, thats not entirely true.
people. new friends. the mountains. opportunities to serve and bring positive change to communities. a relaxed, less time focused culture. the crazy awesome rainstorms that come at night at least once a week--like the one right now. being able to see a different part of God's creation, and see different parts of my own character, as well as different aspects of God's character. learning new things.
its hard to leave things that i love so much behind. its hard to leave friends that you made a month ago. even harder when you dont know when/if you will be back.
and i hate the concept of closure, cause i never feel like i get it.
so here's to the next three days of goodbyes that wont be that fun and leaving behind a place ive grown to love. lets see if distance does what its supposed to do.
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